The last couple of weeks I have had a change in attitude and it has made all the difference.
We had a young women lesson about 3 weeks ago that hit me, I can't even remember what the lesson was on but I can remember what I took from it.
I needed to change my attitude on this whole baby situation.
The day after this particular lesson I had a deep conversation with a girl I work with, which was another wake up call.
I had been very jealous, mad, upset... you name the negative emotion I was feeling it towards my body, towards pregnant women, towards God. I was feeling these negative emotions BY CHOICE!! (Profound I know!:))
My mind was brooding all day long, asking myself WHY me?? Why Heavenly FATHER WHY??
I was brought to my knees and felt ashamed that I had been feeling like this... God has blessed me with so much!!! And here I was feeling sorry for myself...
I've decided to be more positive, to stop having a petty party, and to enjoy the blessings I do have!
I still have my bad days LETS be HONEST! But I am working on it...
I still want to be a mother, but I trust in the Lord. I know I will have that Joy, I know it! I am turning it over to God and doing what I can in my power.
COME WHAT MY AND LOVE IT!!
1 comments:
I must stop reading your blog at work! You are always in my prayers. I know you will be blessed. We just have to be willing to accept that things will happen according to the Lord's time table and not ours.
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